My throat feels blue. I woke up feeling excruciatingly debilitated like something smacked me in my stomach. For some reason my toe hurt and my eyes are tired of opening and closing every second. I can feel my stomach and that is not a good thing. My head feels heavy to hold and my heart seems to fall apart. I feel sick. Mentally, physically. I speak no words but own a million thoughts. Like a sap, I lay in my winter bed, waiting for time to heal me.